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My Journey Led Me To Myself: A Memoir of Self-Discovery and Healing



The part of the puzzle that was missing all along. Very well put together and very clear for the reader to truly understand. Finding this article was at a perfect time in my life. Finding myself is what I am seeking and it is seeking myself. This information helps you become a co creator of your life!




My Journey Led Me To Myself



I am 45, and for the first time in my life I am truly confronted with not knowing who I really am. My kids are grown up and I feel I only have a string of failures behind me, including 3failed marriages, currently in the third one. Although my life feels like a mess, I hope to find myself in this mess, and finally become ME


This article was truly amazing, to me as a person, because, I am on journey of find who I am as a person, and it really spoke to me in ways i needed to find myself .And it taught me how to own my past and be the better person from it .


Hi just 15 and i had lost myself in wanting luxury like celebrities formed weird marriage to celebrities i become a liar because i had formed a fake life in my head and i lost my self and purpose i started asking for more than my parents could give i used my childhood problems to blindfold them its all lies i have now realised i need to be me again thank you


Within this ethnographic narrative, the works of several theorists who discuss the importance of Critical Social Justice and its effect on students within the classroom will be discussed and put to practice. Beginning May 2019 and carrying through July of 2020, I held these theories closely as they helped pave the way of my first year as a teacher of record, and have since shaped me into the woman I recognize myself as today. Within this document, you will read about the expectations I held myself subject to before going into the classroom, case studies of three students whom I had the honor of working alongside, and a final reflection of how I developed over the course of this year. This experience has been pivotal, and I can confidently say that I have acquired the implications Critical Social Justice transpires, as it caters to the well-being and positive learning experience every student deserves.


Here are five things I wish I had known earlier in this journey, much of which I learned while attending a three-week outpatient program at the Mayo Clinic Pain Rehabilitation Center in 2012 and again in 2018. Each of these would have made my journey easier and might help others living with chronic pain.


Though my losses to chronic pain over the last decade have been steep, I have also gained much through the experience. I gained a new respect for myself, knowing I am in control of the pain instead of the pain controlling me. I gained new friendships. And I am gaining new purpose in helping others manage their own pain. I have set a new course for my journey.


Welcome to the cabin! I'm Shawn James and I am an avid outdoorsman building a self reliant lifestyle from a log cabin in the Canadian wilderness. When I am not building you will find me in out in nature exploring, photographing, hunting, foraging and enjoying a life outdoors. In 2017 I began building a log cabin in the Canadian woods alone without any power tools and documented my journey on Youtube. This year I am building a new one. Click on the link below to watch my videos and follow along.


When I am not building log cabins or working on other woodworking and homesteading projects, you will find me exploring in the many forests and lakes that surround me. I have a passion for nature and immersing myself in nature is necessary for my health and happiness. On my Youtube channel I share what I discover while out exploring so you can come explore with me.


Shawn James is an avid outdoorsman building a self reliant lifestyle from a log cabin in the Canadian wilderness with his sidekick Cali by his side. You can follow his journey on Youtube with weekly uploads.


We are all called to lead in some way. Leadership is a profound call that requires us to harness our skills and passions to impact the world around us. One of the biggest lessons I have learned early in my career is that leadership is a journey. We all start somewhere, but the journey never really ends because there is constant room for improvement.


My personal leadership journey began in college. I grew in my excitement for what I was learning because I knew that each class led me closer to the career that I desired. In 2014, after receiving my Master of Business Administration (MBA), I embarked on my career in the nonprofit industry. It was one of the most terrifying and rewarding adventures of my life.


As a young, bright-eyed, and inexperienced manager, my transition from college to the real world was rocky. The office environment was entirely different from the classroom. I struggled to find my place and quickly discovered that my insecurities made me feel distraught. In this season of my leadership journey, I struggled to find my identity. My emotions got the best of me. It was hard at times to interact with others. I did not have the best work-life balance and I quickly found myself overwhelmed and almost ready to give up.


I began to realize the real work of growth and development as a leader needed to happen from the inside, out. I started to embark on a journey of finding healthy ways to address what was happening in my life. As I look back, I realized that I was implementing the five core competencies of social and emotional learning and infusing these elements into my character and identity development process.


Self-management was critical to my healing process. I began learning to find ways to deal with my emotions. I went to therapy, talked with friends, and started learning to label my emotions. I found healthy ways of coping with them. Whether it was journaling, walking by the river, or reading my bible, I recognized that the more I could manage myself, the stronger leader I would be.


Social awareness is vital. My journey through healing allowed me to be more socially aware. I did not just focus on myself and my issues but also opened myself to others. I was able to display empathy and relate to those around me who were experiencing a similar struggle. As of late, I have even been able to build a community where I can empower women leaders to share their stories and find a place where they can embrace who they are.


Social awareness also allowed me to grow in my relationship skills. Networking is critical to my success as a fundraiser and change agent. Building great relationships meant that I needed to connect my ability to be self-aware and to manage myself to interact with others and communicate successfully.


I learned that responsible decision-making meant managing my time more effectively, knowing when to rest, learning not to take on too many responsibilities and projects, and taking care of myself. I still struggle a lot in this area. However, I am taking the active steps to grow.


What is exciting is that I have a long way to go on my leadership journey, and there are a lot of lessons to learn. I have also learned that growing as a leader meant that I did not need to go at it alone. I have my friends, mentors, and colleagues to guide me. I also have powerful tools such as emotional intelligence, a growth mindset, my faith, community, and so much more to equip me along the way.


Personally, I believe we all accomplished our personal growth goals set at the beginning of this journey. As part of this team project I sought to improve my task delegation and active listening skills, and I must say, having teammates to help me develop these qualities and keep me accountable made the process very fulfilling. I believe this experience will help me lead more effectively in future roles either directly or indirectly.


Our W.A.K.E. team was truly full of this diversity, where I found all the support to understand myself and others. I am thankful for having such an amazing opportunity of sharing with wonderful people. I never imagined my efforts were so valued even when they seemed to be just basic blocks to build on our project.


Working with a coach helped me get clearer on my vision, gave me the support and accountability I needed to achieve my goals and helped me unpack my mindset blocks. I finally stopped viewing what I was doing as a hobby and started to take myself seriously.


Thank you so much for the overwhelming feedback on my reintroduction post from last week. It was a hard post for me to write but I am glad it resonated with so many of you. This positive response solidified my decision to share my fitness journey with you. If my story resonates with your habits, current or old, please let me know! I want to hear your feedback and hear about your path. I apologize for the lack of pictures in this post, I just didn't think any felt appropriate.


Through college my love of fitness grew. When I was a freshman I was diagnosed with compartment syndrome in my legs and had surgery to fix it. This history of pain and frustration with my legs' inability to cooperate motivated me to stay active. I got a job at the student fitness center, had numerous coaches, went to a boxing gym, did CrossFit for a while - I really tried everything. As a formerly unathletic girl I felt pride in being recognized as a "fit chick". I had more confidence and was less self-conscious. Exercise did a lot for me and I would never change that. My senior year of college I was named "Miss Fitness" among the fitness staff I worked with and then "Most Athletic" among my sorority sisters. Like most college students, my habits were not always healthy. I did a lot of binge drinking, overeating, and "balanced" it with a fairly strict exercise and diet regimen Monday - Friday. It helped me keep my weight under control and quieted the hate and guilt I felt after a wild weekend. It's amazing to me that it took years to truly grasp how poorly I was treating myself.


Each year of college was more fun and more stressful, and with that came more self-inflcited pressure to maintain my physique, fitness habits, and pursuit of perfection. There were so many things that I now realize were red flags: I was weighing myself daily, I was losing weight weekly, I was blacking out from alcohol almost weekly, my period stopped [it took years to get it back and sorry if this is TMI but the doctor told me I was okay and I had fat on my body and wasn't over exercising and there must be something else wrong..... turns out how we look on the outside doesn't mean much... we need to find out what (weight) is healthy and right for OUR body and makes our body feel good and function properly]. 2ff7e9595c


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